On first glance, it might appear that success has filled Selena Gomez’s life with the kind of freedom and fulfillment that all artists seek from their work. But for 24-year-old Gomez, success created an emotional prison from which she couldn’t escape.
When Gomez realized that she could no longer live up to being the Selena Gomez everyone knew, she decided to make a change.
Gomez spoke to Vogue about the anxieties that come when you’re always expected to be at the top of your game. Constantly burdened by thoughts of inferiority, Gomez told Vogue, “Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything.”
Gomez continually found herself overwhelmed with bouts of anxiety and panic attacks before and after shows. “I’ve cried onstage more times than I can count,” Gomez told Vogue. Gomez even cut one tour short so she could check into a mental health facility.
When so much has been sacrificed to find the kind of success Gomez has worked for, it would be hard to justify walking away. Unfortunately for Gomez, the burden of it all had finally caught up to her.
To find the peace she had been lacking, Gomez stopped performing and stepped away from her record-breaking Instagram account.
For starters, Gomez has put up a healthy boundary between her and her Instagram account. She told Vogue that the app isn’t even on her phone, an idea that would have been unthinkable months ago. “As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out,” Gomez told Vogue. “It had become so consuming to me. It’s what I woke up to and went to sleep to. I was an addict.” She added, “I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram.”
And it’s not just a separation from social media that has helped her find healing these days. Gomez gets even further into the details of how she’s finding peace these days, which include learning Spanish, cooking, and sharing her life with non-celebrity friends.
Gomez’s entire interview is worth checking out, especially if you’ve dealt with anxiety and depression.